so i've been feeling really confused lately. and on top of that ive been feeling really irritable lately. i think its been a combination of having a lot of games in a short span of time and all this confusing that i have been experiencing. i find myself questioning things like who are my real friends, how do people view me, and other stuff that i wont get into bc i might let something slip and that wouldnt be too good. but anyways...who are my true friends and who are just people who view me as someone to talk to when no one else is around? who will i be friends with still in college? will i lose touch with everyone i hold dear to my heart? (corny i know) like i imagine visiting friends during breaks or over a long weekend and catching up. but is that just a fantasy and not whats really going to happen? i hope its not a fantasy.

and then there is this whole issue of how people view you....im sure everyone out there wonders what other people think of them at least once in their lives. and if you say you dont, you're a liar. well i tend to think about this quite often, probably too much at times. but recently someone told me what they thought of me and it was interesting. they didnt say anything bad, it was actually nice. but it was interesting to know what someone else thought. do i come off the same way to others? or completely different?