life is a bitch...

why does life have to be so difficult and stressful sometimes? i wish i could just put life on hold sometimes so i can catch up. it seems life speeds up when ur having the most fun and slows down when the world is kicking your ass. so basically life is a bitch. like right now is crunch time for applying to my colleges and im stressing out about how this whole process goes and if i should even submitt an app or is it not even worth my time because im not gonna get accepted. and on top of that there is all this stress from school and the fact that i just dont give a shit anymore about any of my classes but knowing at the same time that i have to do well. GAHHHH!!! sometimes i wish i had just taken regular classes and coasted through school and not try so hard, life would be so much better. but no i decided to take honors classes and study and put forth an effort. those people who party all the time and dont care about school have it soo easy. and the sad thing is they are prob gonna get into an ok college and end up being just as successful as i will be and i worked my ass off and yet in the end it didnt make a difference. and then when it comes to sports, i hate how people like me have to work so hard just to keep improving but we dont even get close to being as good as other players who dont have to work hard and things just come naturally for them. i mean ya ya they were born with it blah blah blah, but thats fucking bull shit. but you know thats just how life is....life is fucking bull shit. it can go suck my left nut.