So, i was out studying tonight and something happened that really angered me. more so i was angry at the situation than the people doing it, but im still annoyed that it seems like it always happens....well anyways we were studying and sometimes we would get distracted and start talking but some memebers of the group were talking about their own like inside jokes and things and made me and "Jp" seem like we werent even there and out of the loop. i mean ya inside jokes are great and i have nothing against them (i have some...i think....or used to....whatever) but like it was really annoying not knowing what was going on and not being apart of the jokes and sometimes it seemed as though they were laughing at "joey" comments that i would say. and it was like they were speaking their own language and didnt seem to want to make an effort to want to translate for me which is fine but i mean be courteous and talk about things that everyone can get sometimes. and this seems to be happening a lot lately....me being in situations where i have no idea whats going on and try to be apart of something that im not and say "joey" comments that give others reason to mock me. which makes me feel like an outcast..........now that i think about it, i am like the outcast in many cases. its like im a spectator looking in on the convos and jokes of others while they partake in them and me throwing in my comments trying to get noticed in the "stands". i mean arent friends suppose to have inside jokes with each other? and since i seem to not have any with anyone, does that mean im not really friends with people i thought were close friends and instead just acquaintances for the time being and then just get passed by? maybe its just me not remembering things and me just being oblivious sometimes but i mean it really seems as though im not very close with people i thought i was in many cases. hmmmmmm............................